Most of the thoughts in my head right now are the sort of thing that I would prefer to keep to myself. It's hard to write to you without injecting way too much intensity, and way too much that is involving this Man.
The powerful stuff is the good stuff, though.
I marvel that this particular relationship is characterized by Praise and Certainty. Praise, because everything about this man keeps drawing me to glorious exaltation of my God. And certainty, because every turn is enveloped in purpose.
All the dating books I've read fall very far short of portraying an adequate example of what it can be like.
Because I have gotten to know this man in a group of close friends, I know him quite well. I've been in his house a million times, so I know how he does things. I know the people who know him. I've loved on his kids. There is a history here, long before we ever were interested in one another.
...Are you sick of this yet?
I am living in this state of wonder. I want to show you the unfolding of this love story, because I want the world to see that it can really happen. I marvel at that! How often have I mocked the book I Kissed Dating Goodbye? I just couldn't imagine that some eligible bachelor would show up in my circle of friends, become one of my close friends, and then decide to pursue me. That seems like something that only God could put together. Which? I kind of thought He had better things to do.
We went out last night, and left all the kids at my house. He has a daughter and a son, and of course there were my two kids. When we got home, you should have seen the place. M', my eldest child, the one who was responsible, was sound asleep. There was popcorn and peperoni everywhere. The furniture had been moved around. The house was a stunning disaster, but the kids were happy.
Tim and I poured a glass of wine, and found a spot to sit down, amidst the mess.
I'm used to chaos and the messes of creative children, but I got a chance to see him handle it. He did great. Zero panic.
I even went to bed without worrying about it last night, but it's the first thing on my list this morning!
God is beyond Good to me.
1 comment:
Bless you.
I constantly marvel at God's grace to extend this gift after all we've done to him.
It's almost as bit as the Ultimate Grace, if you ask me, not that anybody did...
I can't spell.
Anyway, I think about those moments when I look at my wife and fall in love all over again, it's nice that still happens after 9+ years. I'll pray the same is given to you. After some of your other stories, I think you might deserve this.
-jjs
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