On what happened next

An angel wrote me a check for 500.00, is what happened next. An angel handed me cash.
Once again, God has provided for me to pay my bills.
He is Trustworthy.
Praise Him.

It used to be that I would lie when I needed something. For ages I would tell no person, but God alone. He would still meet my needs.

It used to be that I would die a thousand deaths when someone would hand me money. I remember once, a stranger at church had walked up to me. She asked how to spell my name, because God had told her to write me a check. I went to my car and cried all the way home from the embarrassment.

I still get so embarrassed that I want to whimper. But there's really no way around it.
My friend asked me, "Are your bills paid?"
And to my negative response, she asked, "How much do you need to pay them?"
I knew the total, because I've been working those numbers frequently, trying to figure out what to pay, and what can wait.
I told her. She gave me that, plus some.
And I didn't cry.
There was a sort of sigh, though, of resignation. Another impact to my Pride.
I was also a little sad at my own sorry faith. I keep desperately seeking work, but God pays my bills another way.
He still pays them.
As my friend Cheryl said, "What's it to me, (if God wants to pay my bills in a way that humbles me?) I am His bond servant."
This is where God has me, and He has me here because I am a hard case to humble. He has me here because He loves me to much to allow me to be self-sufficient and proud.

God has placed around me people who are sensitive to His leading. People Who love me far more than I deserve. People whom I can not hope to repay. Thank you so much. I don't know how to say "Thank You" to such generosity and love.

God, teach me to be so in tune with You, that I can not fail to meet the needs around me, too.
Amen.