Friday, August 16, 2013

Don't burst my bubble, and I won't burst yours. Deal?

There are things that I have control over and things over which I have no control at all, but I frequently find myself in some confusion over which is which. This is an important distinction, yet I find that the difficulty is a common one within the human condition. In fact, I am most aware of this confusion in others. Any time another person works to control me, my hackles go up licketty-split.

I made a little list today (which is in itself a means by which I take control)  of those things for which I have complete responsibility for controlling. Once I was satisfied with that list, I found that I needed to make two others; one of my partial dominion, and one of no dominion.

Ironically, I seem to expend a great deal of energy trying to rule domains that are not, in fact, my own. This would not be quite so bad if I had my own well in hand. If only I did! Those things that are mine to rule are often ignored by me.

I frequently squander my time, or allow other influences to dictate how I spend it. This ought not to be. My time is a precious resource over which I have the right and the responsibility to rule. Your time, though, which I would like to meddle with, why that's off limits.

My diet: how about that? I lament my poor self a victim at the dinner table when we have a full meal at 8pm. This because I know how every crumb will settle on my hips as I traipse off to dreamland with a full belly. And, really, who can help themselves refrain from the ice cream with chocolate sauce? Is it my fault I gave in? It is. It most certainly is. This is my area of particular authority, and I am ashamed to consider how frequently I abdicate that throne.

What of my words, and my thoughts? These, too are areas that I blithely submit to outside influence or suggestion. Have I allowed you to provoke an angry torrent from my lips (or my blog)? Who is in charge here? I ask you!

It's funny to consider how peeved I get when someone else wants to control me, yet how readily I give in.

Give me just a minute, though, and I will tell you how to act, what to think, and where to go. I'm pleased as punch to control you.

I want to think about this today. If I consider my little bubble, and the decisions regarding it that are mine to make, perhaps I will find it easier to appropriately respect the decisions of those around me.

Picture everyone in little kingdom bubbles today, won't you? That is what I shall be doing.

1 comment:

Yvonne said...

Amen, Sister!! Now if you will just allow me a little control, I'll have you fixed up in no time!!