I was thinking about how very untidy life is. My house is untidy, too, but that's not what I am talking about.
My thoughts de jour are spurred on by my singlehood, but they relate to many other aspects of life just as easily.
When I became a Single-Again person, I determined that I would wait for God to drop a man in my lap. What I mean is that I wouldn't go looking, and I would wait to see God work His magic. One day Prince Charming would knock on my door, and the music would swell, and love would bloom.
I was destined to marry the UPS man.
So, it happened! A couple times over the past many years, a man has dropped in my path who has seemed so very ideal. And then it didn't work out.
So, I am asking why it is that God does such things. I never wanted to be divorced in the first place. (God certainly allowed me a doozy of a situation there!) Then, I was perfectly content to wait for Him to deliver Mr Right all gift wrapped to me. (heavy sigh)
But I think I know the reason.
In Pilgrim's Progress, there's this doofus named Christian who sets off for the Celestial City. Have you read this? He wants to go there....he desires what is Good...he strikes out with great intentions, and no real idea of how hard the road will be. He has one thing after another happen as he trudges along. Poor guy! But he sure gets a lot wiser along the way.
And I think there's something to that.
If I'd been happily married for 50 years...
If I'd been "courted" successfully by the first man who came along...
If God kept my expectations met at every turn...
...Just think what a self-righteous prig I'd be.
Cause that's pretty much where I started. I had all the answers.
Then, God worked His magic.
Now I'm getting pretty clear on the fact that I am clueless. I am muddling thorough just like you are. I think I am slower to judge and quicker to love. And that's right where God wants me to be.
4 comments:
life just a good
Don't you think that the older you get, the less you know? That's certainly true for me... the foundational things do not change, but all the other stuff I thought I 'knew' just isn't what I thought it was... it's a good place to be though. It just makes me realize how pickin' dependant I am on God.
Kelly, you actually made it through Pilgrim's Progess? (unworthy! unworthy!) Heavens, I thought I was going to die before I made it half way through that book! All of these strange names, that had meanings I did not understand, stupid choices being made constantly. Ah! This guy was almost as bad as me in life!
Sometimes I think God brings situations in to our lifes to either deflect us from something else that might have occurred if it had our attention or to just give us a break. Sometimes we observe something we like and wish it was permanent - when it was never meant to be. Sometimes we may think ourselves clueless when in fact we don't like the answers we get....
Slight out of context, but I have long held onto Phillipians 4:11 ..... Just a thought, but does it have application is the question.
Pilgrim's Progress is a wonderful book! I am actually reading it for the 3rd time....this time to my youngest son. I tend to think in pictures, so I find deep meaning in this book. You really should try it!
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