Do Fairies have tails?

Little girls dream of their knight in shining armor. We have this need to be beautiful, and to have the very ground we walk upon worshiped. All I can figure is that God built that into our DNA.

I was standing in church yesterday with the most handsome man in the sanctuary. He was singing praise and holding my hand. He has a beautiful singing voice, and a beautiful heart for God. I told God in that moment that I was the very most loved woman in that entire room. But He corrected me. Every person in that room was loved as much as I, just that not all of them know it.

God has loved me powerfully over the past 10 years. He has shown Himself so Powerful in the way that He provides for, and protects, the kids and I. Part of me has always struggled with asking God to bring a man into my life, because it seems a disloyalty to Him. Like Israel asking for a human king, when they had a theocracy. Why ask for a stone when you hold a diamond?

Yet, I am delighting here in the dawning realization that not only am I loved, but my heart is undivided. This man who is romancing me is drawing my heart after my Creator in a way I would not have dreamed possible. All the love he pours out on me is teaching me a deeper understanding of how my God loves me. I thought I already understood the greatness of God's love for me, yet I see that it was just a hint. There is so much more.

In Ephesians 3, it talks about comprehending the height and depth and breadth of God's love. It's a courageous thing for a human being to endeavor to plumb the depths of that Love. God's Love is force that must change the face of whatever it touches, and the exploration of it is not to be undertaken lightly.

I am awed that God would teach me more of Himself through a man. I am daily surprised that I can fall in love with a man, while falling more in love with my God.

There is a deep mystery here.

And I shall plumb the depths, to know It well.